Feels good to look at this again

Hah! Feels good to come back to my blog by accident. I actually found my blog on google by searching Kelvin Li (obviously my name) which the main reason I believe is the close relationship between Blogger.com and Google. Alright, now that I'm here again, why don't I update everyone with what happened to me lately.

About a week ago I came back to toronto from University of Waterloo for the winter break. I've been eating with my uncle's family and hanging out with my own friends. We went to play bowling last night, followed by a dinner in a grill of which the name I can't recall, and finally went to watch a movie called "Juno". The movie was alright but it wasn't amazing.

Few nights ago, I went to my favourite and probably the only chinese tea house I know in toronto, Ten Rens' Tea House, for a drink. there is one waitress with a bright smile always hanging on her face and when she really laughs even her eyes are laughing; there was no way I couuld resist that. so I ended up asking her for her msn and she gave me, and she told me she remembers where I sat the previous time I went there, which was like four months ago! wow now that was really sweet. I couldn't sleep that night because of that, and partly because of the tea.

Well that's about it for my life lately. I'll come back from time to time to update this blog. Not that anyone is reading it, but just for practice of typing I guess.


Cheers,
Kelvin

A Fresh Start

From now on I'll switch to a new blog:

http://www.li-meditation.blogspot.com

thanks for support all along, bros.

Special thanks to:

VINCENT and MAX who have been my main readers in this two years.

I hope you will support me as you did.


Cheers,
Kelvin

I'm stupid

That's my second worry.

I'm stupid, and I'm getting more stupid.



Kelvin

I'm back my old friend

Don't know how long I've left this blog. All of a sudden, I feel like writing a new post again.

It's been ten months staying in Canada. I have basically got used to the lifestyle here, though from time to time I discovered the worries deep inside my heart, behind my smiling face.

Since grade 1 in elementary school I have loved Math. I remember my math teacher at that time was also my class teacher. She had short hair, medium height, and a pair of eyes full of love. To raise our interest in Math, she often held Math competition in the class. Just by watching the white chalk in her hand dividing the blackboard into 8 regions, on which we were to write down our answers, the air in the classroom seemed to be frozen, and everyone's eyes started to shone with ambition and confidence. That's the moment I started to love Math, the moment that changed my life. THANKS MS AU YEUNG! For my whole elementary school life, I was in top 3 for Math in my class. This period was important as my confidence in Math rooted in these 6 years. I started to participate in Mathematics Olympiad. Despite the fact that I didn't win any prize, it reveals to me what Math is really about, reveals to me a tip of an iceberg of the unlimited space of the outside world.

I have a weak determination, which leads to procrastination, reason being slave of desire. My mark started to drop once I got into secondary school. My rank in my grade dropped from 15 to 17, 26, 37, and finally stayed at 37 when I left Shau Kei Wan Secondary School, the school I studied in for five years. There I met a group of "math geeks", which became my motivation to strive for very best to increase my knowledge in Math so as not to be left behind. It was exhausting yet exciting. We gave each others questions from time to time.

We had fun.

Ten months ago I came to Canada after the HKCEE in order to avoid the HKALE two years later. Life is way different here. People emphasize more enjoying life, and don't focus as much in academics. There're, therefore, fewer people that are good enough to be my motivation. I lost it. Most of the things taught in Math class, I learnt it in Hong Kong. For the first time in my life, Math suddenly seemed boring to me. I knew all along it's my fault. I should learn by myself, and not rely on school or the almost useless textbook. Once again, I procrastinated. Big time. Until now. I started to spend most of my spare time on computer games. I'm now a good gamer. Though that's not what I'm looking for.

So here's my first worry. I'm worried that I can never learn Math with so much passion as I did in secondary school. I'm more than worried. I'm scared.

Will continue with other worries.


Kelvin

LOL

About the problem that I enlisted below, I asked my Geometry teacher, Mr. Schnabel, and it took him a hell lots of time - 3 minutes. LOL..... If he's not a complete genious he's half.

BTW, personally struggling in the apprehension of the General Theory of relativity. Yet I'm still peeping inside the enormous mansion from the gateway. Still a long way to go buddy............

Wish me luck guys!

Cheers,

Kelvin

I can't take this anymore

Having been in Canada for almost half a year, I finally realized the ultimate difference between Asian and Europeans, i.e. most of the Europeans are good at indulging themselves and lead a wonderful life with a lot of friends sth like that. On the other hand many of them are, apologies for my lack of vocabulary, STUPID in Math(By math i mean anything math-related subjects like Physics)! I don't mean to be rude but I just can't help it! God DDDDDDammit!!! People keep asking stupid questions like "Why do you change signs here?", "Yes I studied Differentiation. yes I did. .....Isn't derivative of e^3x in respect of x 3(x)(e^(2x))?" There're altogether 4 normal guys(3 boys and 1 girl) in my Calculus class. One in particular is called Jooho and he's talented in most subjects except Physical Exercises. Without him I would've kill myself I'm afraid. He is also my closest rival in Calculus and Geometry. He's Korean - Asian Power lol.

~ Break Time ~

Math Problem

Square ABCD, E is midpt of CD, F is midpt of AD. BE and CF intersect at P.
Prove AP = AB.

I have no idea how to address this problem. For some reasons I couldn't think whenever I tried to do it.

Let's talk about some positive stuff. I like my Geometry Teacher, Mr Schnabel. He's good at mental math, and he has good, no, great knowledge of Math. His charm comes from his thinking hard before saying little things, giving me a feeling that he knows so much things that he has to choose the material of our level to tell us. He's got PhD in Waterloo, so his Knowledge is unquestionable.

Alright time to go to bed.

Cheers

Kelvin

Oh God

Its below 10 degrees celcius outside.

Yet, I didn't feel cold.

Inside a Tea House.

It's warm.

But, my hands are shaking, shaking hard.

After glancing through the menu, I order 碧螺春,

which I wanted to give it a shot for a long time.

I look around.

There're a lota waitresses.

One of which

Caught my eyes.

Coming with the bill, theres a customer comment form.

There're 3 boxes for Waiter Service:

Excellent, Satisfactory, Need Improvement.

Beside them, I drew a box, which says:

PERFECT.

I don't know why I did that,

that it almost seems naive.

I don't know.

A waitress took back the sheet and walked away, reading what I just wrote.

Within a second most of them, including the ONE, know the content.

I took another sip of tea.

It is so fresh, so free of dust from reality - so special.

I lifted my head occassionally.

There she is, walking passed me, inside and outside.

She's looking at me.

She smiles, her eyes flickering.

What can be more cute,

more worth praise?

For whatever reason, I feel that there's something.

Is it not an illusion?

Don't, it isn't just another passer-by in my life.

I cry out loud with no sound.

I pray without my own knowledge.

Regardless, the smile leaves a mark.

Hardly I make a smile back.

Where am I?

I don't care, and I want to hide in my fantasy for as long as I can.

My hands begin to shake.

I dare not picking up the cup again.

They're shaking so hard.

Wasting no time, I leave before she notices it, if ever she would.

I went home but I'm still there.




Kelvin

Gotta be quick

Today is the first day of the second week of school. Everything hardly makes a difference with last week, including that no matter the staff or the whole atmostphere, is in extraordinary slow motion. They walk slowly just like jogging in countryside, eat slowly, the counter person talking to other staff when theres a bunch of ppl waiting for her, the whole pace is slow except that, they speak real fast. Believe me. The adults are quite easy to catch up when comparing with the classmates. Oh my gosh! is everything popped out of my mind when they are making jokes that I cant help but to scratch my head. 'Theres still a long way to go....' man...

Whats funny is that when I tried to talk to an Indian classmate, I look like im deaf. I keep saying "huh?" dozens of times before i can finally catch what he means. Haha thanks to my poor English. It is indeed one of the biggest obstacle for me to make western friends because who would spend time on u, repeating every sentence for loads of times when they can choose to talk to a guy of their own kind? The other one is my personality which I think its hard to change.

I just came out of a refreshing shower (Its freezing in mid-Sept, which never happens in Hong Kong) and when I was inside bathroom I talked to myself, or God if u wish, that I really wanna speak English real fluently just likt the local ppl. I always think im good at imitating people but now when I think about I have learned English since i was 4, and now I still can master the technique of speaking English! SO what a crap I am!!! How ironic.

SOmetimes, I really feel bad about all that. Do something, Kelvin Li.

Do something, yet Im still groping my way for the 'something' that will hopefully lead me to success.

Cheers,

Kelvin