That's my second worry.
I'm stupid, and I'm getting more stupid.
Kelvin
Saturday, June 09, 2007
I'm back my old friend
Don't know how long I've left this blog. All of a sudden, I feel like writing a new post again.
It's been ten months staying in Canada. I have basically got used to the lifestyle here, though from time to time I discovered the worries deep inside my heart, behind my smiling face.
Since grade 1 in elementary school I have loved Math. I remember my math teacher at that time was also my class teacher. She had short hair, medium height, and a pair of eyes full of love. To raise our interest in Math, she often held Math competition in the class. Just by watching the white chalk in her hand dividing the blackboard into 8 regions, on which we were to write down our answers, the air in the classroom seemed to be frozen, and everyone's eyes started to shone with ambition and confidence. That's the moment I started to love Math, the moment that changed my life. THANKS MS AU YEUNG! For my whole elementary school life, I was in top 3 for Math in my class. This period was important as my confidence in Math rooted in these 6 years. I started to participate in Mathematics Olympiad. Despite the fact that I didn't win any prize, it reveals to me what Math is really about, reveals to me a tip of an iceberg of the unlimited space of the outside world.
I have a weak determination, which leads to procrastination, reason being slave of desire. My mark started to drop once I got into secondary school. My rank in my grade dropped from 15 to 17, 26, 37, and finally stayed at 37 when I left Shau Kei Wan Secondary School, the school I studied in for five years. There I met a group of "math geeks", which became my motivation to strive for very best to increase my knowledge in Math so as not to be left behind. It was exhausting yet exciting. We gave each others questions from time to time.
We had fun.
Ten months ago I came to Canada after the HKCEE in order to avoid the HKALE two years later. Life is way different here. People emphasize more enjoying life, and don't focus as much in academics. There're, therefore, fewer people that are good enough to be my motivation. I lost it. Most of the things taught in Math class, I learnt it in Hong Kong. For the first time in my life, Math suddenly seemed boring to me. I knew all along it's my fault. I should learn by myself, and not rely on school or the almost useless textbook. Once again, I procrastinated. Big time. Until now. I started to spend most of my spare time on computer games. I'm now a good gamer. Though that's not what I'm looking for.
So here's my first worry. I'm worried that I can never learn Math with so much passion as I did in secondary school. I'm more than worried. I'm scared.
Will continue with other worries.
Kelvin
It's been ten months staying in Canada. I have basically got used to the lifestyle here, though from time to time I discovered the worries deep inside my heart, behind my smiling face.
Since grade 1 in elementary school I have loved Math. I remember my math teacher at that time was also my class teacher. She had short hair, medium height, and a pair of eyes full of love. To raise our interest in Math, she often held Math competition in the class. Just by watching the white chalk in her hand dividing the blackboard into 8 regions, on which we were to write down our answers, the air in the classroom seemed to be frozen, and everyone's eyes started to shone with ambition and confidence. That's the moment I started to love Math, the moment that changed my life. THANKS MS AU YEUNG! For my whole elementary school life, I was in top 3 for Math in my class. This period was important as my confidence in Math rooted in these 6 years. I started to participate in Mathematics Olympiad. Despite the fact that I didn't win any prize, it reveals to me what Math is really about, reveals to me a tip of an iceberg of the unlimited space of the outside world.
I have a weak determination, which leads to procrastination, reason being slave of desire. My mark started to drop once I got into secondary school. My rank in my grade dropped from 15 to 17, 26, 37, and finally stayed at 37 when I left Shau Kei Wan Secondary School, the school I studied in for five years. There I met a group of "math geeks", which became my motivation to strive for very best to increase my knowledge in Math so as not to be left behind. It was exhausting yet exciting. We gave each others questions from time to time.
We had fun.
Ten months ago I came to Canada after the HKCEE in order to avoid the HKALE two years later. Life is way different here. People emphasize more enjoying life, and don't focus as much in academics. There're, therefore, fewer people that are good enough to be my motivation. I lost it. Most of the things taught in Math class, I learnt it in Hong Kong. For the first time in my life, Math suddenly seemed boring to me. I knew all along it's my fault. I should learn by myself, and not rely on school or the almost useless textbook. Once again, I procrastinated. Big time. Until now. I started to spend most of my spare time on computer games. I'm now a good gamer. Though that's not what I'm looking for.
So here's my first worry. I'm worried that I can never learn Math with so much passion as I did in secondary school. I'm more than worried. I'm scared.
Will continue with other worries.
Kelvin
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