Dammit the same ScreenSaver, wash away all I've written down. Wtf.
I was writing about a funny thing that I remember. But now I gonna cut the details coz' I dun feel like repeating them all over again... The computer was kicking my ass!
Some people said, "Check your Question Answer book to see if there're missing pages. Should you have any questions, RAISE UP your hand"
Of course it's COMPLETELY wrong. I gonna leave out those which are not important.
Then I wondered how come I was so sure that it isn't me who's made a mistake? I managed to figure that it's because there's a much bigger community than "School", in which the majority doesn't speak "raise up", and this community is named "Earth".
There's no way we can help but to admit that we are not believing in TRUTH, but what the majority inside a community believes. If you don't think so, think again.
Then I broaden my unsorted idea, that maybe it's possible there's an even bigger community in which the majority has a totally distinct knowledge with us, that is yet to be discover? (In which the dwellers are what we considere as "Aliens"?) If this guess stands, then it explains why there're problems that can never be solved with what we know today. Maybe from the start there's something wrong, that none of us ever notice, or those people who do was ignored by others and regarded as NUTS.
It's just like solving a simple geometry problem when we were in secondary school, that a lot of times when we think we're about to finish the proof, in fact our direction at the beginning was wrong. It's just like in a book, 怎樣解題 (or it's 數學與猜想?) written by a famous Mathematician, J.波利亞, which says that doing a maths question is sometimes like there's a U-shaped glass wall between the crop and the chicken. The chicken thought the brilliant way, which seems to be the shortest way, to get the crop is to go straightforward, without knowing that the prescence of the glass wall will block its way. It just walks and walks, and doesn't knowt that although it's farther to walk out of the glass wall before being able to get the crop, it's actually the only way! (Hope I express the story clearly :P)
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**crop
So maybe based on the "wrong" concept, we can still prove something, yet at the end when we thought we're not far from the final truth, we will be disappointed as we finally find out that at the beginning it's all wrong...
It's just a crazy fancy of mine. Don't think too much about that if you don't even know what I am talking about. Forget it~ ^^
Cheers,
Kelvin
Friday, April 28, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Jokes
1
When I was paying my bill at the doctor's office, I noticed blood trickling down my leg. The bandage they had put on me after a procedure had come loose.
"I'm bleeding all over your floor," I said to the receptoinist.
She looked up immediately, alarmed. "Thanks for telling me. I'll call housekeeping."
2
Exhausted after driving all night, a man decided to pull over to get some sleep. He had just settled back to snooze when there was a knock on the window.
He opened his eyes to a jogger, who asked, "Excuse me, but do you have the time?"
"It's 8:10"
"Thanks," he replied, running off. The man had just dozed off again when there was another knock.
"What time is it?" asked a hiker.
"8:25." Fed up, the man put a sign in his window that read "I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE TIME IS !!!"
Knock, knock! He was suddenly awakened again.
Scowling, the man rolled down the window.
"What?" he yelled at the boy standing there.
"It's 8:45."
When I was paying my bill at the doctor's office, I noticed blood trickling down my leg. The bandage they had put on me after a procedure had come loose.
"I'm bleeding all over your floor," I said to the receptoinist.
She looked up immediately, alarmed. "Thanks for telling me. I'll call housekeeping."
2
Exhausted after driving all night, a man decided to pull over to get some sleep. He had just settled back to snooze when there was a knock on the window.
He opened his eyes to a jogger, who asked, "Excuse me, but do you have the time?"
"It's 8:10"
"Thanks," he replied, running off. The man had just dozed off again when there was another knock.
"What time is it?" asked a hiker.
"8:25." Fed up, the man put a sign in his window that read "I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE TIME IS !!!"
Knock, knock! He was suddenly awakened again.
Scowling, the man rolled down the window.
"What?" he yelled at the boy standing there.
"It's 8:45."
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
How am I supposed to stand it?
Ha, how sarcastic, that this day I can't think of anything to say and another day I've got countless ideas.
Right now although I don't really feel like typing anything for I'm bout to go to bed, I can't help but finish this small paragraph.
The whole story is simple.
My mom always commands dad to do ANYTHING, anything, partly because he doesn't really self-motivated to do housework (as this is what mom said), and partly because......
But well okay, so dad doesn't do it. That doesn't mean YOU should command him as if he's a servant, especially IN FRONT OF ME, MAN! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TALK TO DAD IN THIS WAY, HUH? Not even grandpa. I understand that you're angry with dad for only surfing the net and watching tv after work. Yet you two can set plans! I can't believe my eyes that my parents can't work out this kind of slightest matter! Simply promising each other one will do specific things at what time can have the problem solved! And you can find me also! Jesus!
Let the cat out of the bag, mom. It's not what dad does make you treat him that badly, which I think is actually INSULTS! It's that you get annoyed from work, from the relationship with grandma of mom's side, and then when back home you spit those, those bad feelings (seems that I have beautified it) on dad while being clear that dad is so soft that he won't fight back. To this point I am really surprised at dad's EQ. I never see him get really angry, which is why mom is able to take the whip hand on him.
Dammit! I feel like a fish out of water, that I don't understand my family at all, not even a single bit!
More than that, not knowing since when I began to lost faith on what is called MARRIAGE. In my eyes it's a terrifying vocabulary. It's untouchable.
After all I know she loves me, which is implicit. It's juat I can't stand her way of treating dad sometimes (sometimes they get along well when nothing's happening).
Frankly, all these are part of the reasons why I want to study abroad. I don't belong here.
I rarely disagree with lyrics, but this time, i.e. "When love takes you home, and says you belong here. Your loneliness passed, and a new life began..."
It's bullshit to me.
I enjoy much more when I'm alone, enjoying going to the mountains, surfing the net chatting with friends(Janet, Minnie, Scott, Nathan, Aeroplane...), practising English, anything I do on my own or with my true friends.
Hope I don't make you readers feel bad. =) I don't mean to. (Anyway there's not many people crossing by)
Cheers,
Kelvin
Right now although I don't really feel like typing anything for I'm bout to go to bed, I can't help but finish this small paragraph.
The whole story is simple.
My mom always commands dad to do ANYTHING, anything, partly because he doesn't really self-motivated to do housework (as this is what mom said), and partly because......
But well okay, so dad doesn't do it. That doesn't mean YOU should command him as if he's a servant, especially IN FRONT OF ME, MAN! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TALK TO DAD IN THIS WAY, HUH? Not even grandpa. I understand that you're angry with dad for only surfing the net and watching tv after work. Yet you two can set plans! I can't believe my eyes that my parents can't work out this kind of slightest matter! Simply promising each other one will do specific things at what time can have the problem solved! And you can find me also! Jesus!
Let the cat out of the bag, mom. It's not what dad does make you treat him that badly, which I think is actually INSULTS! It's that you get annoyed from work, from the relationship with grandma of mom's side, and then when back home you spit those, those bad feelings (seems that I have beautified it) on dad while being clear that dad is so soft that he won't fight back. To this point I am really surprised at dad's EQ. I never see him get really angry, which is why mom is able to take the whip hand on him.
Dammit! I feel like a fish out of water, that I don't understand my family at all, not even a single bit!
More than that, not knowing since when I began to lost faith on what is called MARRIAGE. In my eyes it's a terrifying vocabulary. It's untouchable.
After all I know she loves me, which is implicit. It's juat I can't stand her way of treating dad sometimes (sometimes they get along well when nothing's happening).
Frankly, all these are part of the reasons why I want to study abroad. I don't belong here.
I rarely disagree with lyrics, but this time, i.e. "When love takes you home, and says you belong here. Your loneliness passed, and a new life began..."
It's bullshit to me.
I enjoy much more when I'm alone, enjoying going to the mountains, surfing the net chatting with friends(Janet, Minnie, Scott, Nathan, Aeroplane...), practising English, anything I do on my own or with my true friends.
Hope I don't make you readers feel bad. =) I don't mean to. (Anyway there's not many people crossing by)
Cheers,
Kelvin
Advice from bbc.co.uk on how to pronouce correctly and speak fluently
Martin Parrott answers:
Easily, I don’t know. I don’t think there are easy ways to learn languages – I don’t think people who promise sudden ‘quick fix’ methods are to be believed. We learn slowly, and we learn by working hard.
As far as pronunciation is concerned, the most important thing is listening! I think, often we try and pronounce things correctly before we can really hear what the differences are. How do we check out whether we’re doing that?
Record ourselves
I think we need to record ourselves and we need to record what it is we’re repeating and listening to. So, the most useful thing perhaps is to listen to the radio with a tape recorder, to record a little bit of the radio, and then to say it ourselves, and to compare how we’ve said it, with the way it was said on the radio, in the language we’re learning.
It’s a slow process. We need to spend a lot of time rehearsing. I remember when I was learning, for instance, for hours and hours as I was walking or cycling, or whatever – I was trying to produce those sounds, difficult sounds that I was learning.
The more we do that, the more we pick up when we hear them. And of course the other thing about pronunciation is, as we improve our pronunciation, that also improves our comprehension. As we learn to make these distinction between similar sounds, we start hearing them – and that makes understanding easier.
Spelling is a problem
One of the biggest problems in English is that the spelling gets in the way because there are so many ways of spelling the same sound. Also because letters may be written and not pronounced and because letters may be written and pronounced in a very unexpected way. When we learn to read, that can interfere with our pronunciation, and can cause problems in itself.
Is there a difference between pronunciation and fluency?
They’re quite different. Pronunciation is getting the sounds right, and of course it’s also getting the intonation and the rhythm right – it’s not just individual sounds, it’s pushing them all together.
Fluency perhaps overlaps there a little bit. Fluency is saying things easily. Being fluent is more a question of being confident in the vocabulary, and how to put the words together in the grammar – being confident in that - …and just being confident in your ability to express yourself and having a go.
It’s those psychological factors much more than whether you can get your tongue around the individual sounds. In fact people whose pronunciation is poor, but who speak fluently and put it together and get it out reasonably quickly, are usually easier to understand than people who’re taking a lot of trouble over their pronunciation and therefore are slowing themselves down, and speaking one word at a time.
One piece of advice
When you’re speaking, don’t think about the individual sounds and getting those right. Think about groups of words, and think about meaningful groups of words, and getting those out as quickly and as smoothly as you can.
Easily, I don’t know. I don’t think there are easy ways to learn languages – I don’t think people who promise sudden ‘quick fix’ methods are to be believed. We learn slowly, and we learn by working hard.
As far as pronunciation is concerned, the most important thing is listening! I think, often we try and pronounce things correctly before we can really hear what the differences are. How do we check out whether we’re doing that?
Record ourselves
I think we need to record ourselves and we need to record what it is we’re repeating and listening to. So, the most useful thing perhaps is to listen to the radio with a tape recorder, to record a little bit of the radio, and then to say it ourselves, and to compare how we’ve said it, with the way it was said on the radio, in the language we’re learning.
It’s a slow process. We need to spend a lot of time rehearsing. I remember when I was learning, for instance, for hours and hours as I was walking or cycling, or whatever – I was trying to produce those sounds, difficult sounds that I was learning.
The more we do that, the more we pick up when we hear them. And of course the other thing about pronunciation is, as we improve our pronunciation, that also improves our comprehension. As we learn to make these distinction between similar sounds, we start hearing them – and that makes understanding easier.
Spelling is a problem
One of the biggest problems in English is that the spelling gets in the way because there are so many ways of spelling the same sound. Also because letters may be written and not pronounced and because letters may be written and pronounced in a very unexpected way. When we learn to read, that can interfere with our pronunciation, and can cause problems in itself.
Is there a difference between pronunciation and fluency?
They’re quite different. Pronunciation is getting the sounds right, and of course it’s also getting the intonation and the rhythm right – it’s not just individual sounds, it’s pushing them all together.
Fluency perhaps overlaps there a little bit. Fluency is saying things easily. Being fluent is more a question of being confident in the vocabulary, and how to put the words together in the grammar – being confident in that - …and just being confident in your ability to express yourself and having a go.
It’s those psychological factors much more than whether you can get your tongue around the individual sounds. In fact people whose pronunciation is poor, but who speak fluently and put it together and get it out reasonably quickly, are usually easier to understand than people who’re taking a lot of trouble over their pronunciation and therefore are slowing themselves down, and speaking one word at a time.
One piece of advice
When you’re speaking, don’t think about the individual sounds and getting those right. Think about groups of words, and think about meaningful groups of words, and getting those out as quickly and as smoothly as you can.
Learning English Tips that I think is good
Point 1
Be clear about why you want to learn English. Do you want it for your job, to help you get a job, to talk to English speakers, to help you study?
Point 2
Be clear about how good you want your English to be. How good do you want to be at speaking English, listening, reading, writing?
Point 3
Have a clear image of yourself when you have achieved the proficiency that you want. What will you see, what will you hear, how will you feel?
Point 4
If possible, enrol on a language course. If you can't, put yourself in situations where you can use English which leads on to ......
Point 5
Look for opportunities to learn and use English. Speak English whenever you can. Listen to the radio and CDs in English, read and write in English. If you look for opportunities, you will find them.
Point 6
Write down new words and phrases in a notebook. Keep the notebook with you so you can look at it when you have a spare moment.
Point 7
Practise, practise, practise. There's an expression in English. If you don't want to lose it, use it. This is very true when it comes to learning foreign languages.
Point 8
Find a learning buddy or colleague. Find someone you can learn English with. Speak with each other. Send each other messages in English.
Point 9
Learn little and often. Make it a habit to learn English ten minutes each day. This is much better than learning for longer once a week.
And the final point: At the beginning of a learning period, ask yourself, "What do I want to learn today?" At the end of a period, ask yoursef, "What have I learnt today?"
There's a story about a teacher who told his students, ?You know you're making progress in English when you speak in English, think in English, and dream in English.
One day a student came into the class very excited and said, "Teacher, Teacher, last night I dreamt in English." The teacher said, "That's wonderful. What did you dream about?" And the student said, "I don't know, it was in English."
Cheers,
Kelvin
Be clear about why you want to learn English. Do you want it for your job, to help you get a job, to talk to English speakers, to help you study?
Point 2
Be clear about how good you want your English to be. How good do you want to be at speaking English, listening, reading, writing?
Point 3
Have a clear image of yourself when you have achieved the proficiency that you want. What will you see, what will you hear, how will you feel?
Point 4
If possible, enrol on a language course. If you can't, put yourself in situations where you can use English which leads on to ......
Point 5
Look for opportunities to learn and use English. Speak English whenever you can. Listen to the radio and CDs in English, read and write in English. If you look for opportunities, you will find them.
Point 6
Write down new words and phrases in a notebook. Keep the notebook with you so you can look at it when you have a spare moment.
Point 7
Practise, practise, practise. There's an expression in English. If you don't want to lose it, use it. This is very true when it comes to learning foreign languages.
Point 8
Find a learning buddy or colleague. Find someone you can learn English with. Speak with each other. Send each other messages in English.
Point 9
Learn little and often. Make it a habit to learn English ten minutes each day. This is much better than learning for longer once a week.
And the final point: At the beginning of a learning period, ask yourself, "What do I want to learn today?" At the end of a period, ask yoursef, "What have I learnt today?"
There's a story about a teacher who told his students, ?You know you're making progress in English when you speak in English, think in English, and dream in English.
One day a student came into the class very excited and said, "Teacher, Teacher, last night I dreamt in English." The teacher said, "That's wonderful. What did you dream about?" And the student said, "I don't know, it was in English."
Cheers,
Kelvin
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Teach me please
Who is kind enough to tell me how to say "問題"晶"結所在" in English???
Thanks a million.
Cheers,
Kelvin
Thanks a million.
Cheers,
Kelvin
Compuer Exam's over, yeah it's realy OVER.
Today I took the computer exam, which I was doomed to probably fail.
Though I didn't feel anything, no sorrow or worries, really nothing.
Which is why I am worried, for I don't feel anything about the HKCEE, a supposed-to-be one of the most important exams ever in everyone's life in Hong Kong, no nervousness, no panicking, no excitedness.
No happiness, absolutely blank as if nothing special is happening.
Maybe partly because I believe I'm going to study abroad, of which my CE results are not going to be considered for admission.
Moreover, Computer and IT is no way one of the six subjects that counts anywayz, making me feel that today's exam doesn't really mean much to me comparing to some other people, indeed.
Anyway I was exhausted afer the exam and after lunch I wasted no time having a nap, which lasts for 3 hours. (Haha.)
There'll be one week until my next exam is to be taken.
Wish me, and every candidate good luck (That seems impossible to me, as can't be all people have good luk at the same time right)
At 7:00pm I watched a TV programme. It talked about the phenomenon of the majority of students going to tutorial schools. one of the professor was talking. He said, "It's as a matter of fact not the tutorial schools the tie of the knot, but the education system in Hong Kong that urges students to aim for high marks in public exams. And we universities are really receiving those students with HIGH MARKS!!! In this way there's no way we can blame the tutorial schools nor the students who go to tutorial schools. One day the education system stands, this worrying phenomenon, bordering on tragedy, won't vanish by itself."
The education system nowadays is training "High Marks Handicapped" (高分低能), which generally lack creativity, to contribute to the society.
if you think it's nothing worth thinking over at all, think again.
Well, I don't have an implicit answer on myself right now, but I believe I'll have one in not long future.
Cheers,
Kelvin
Saturday, April 22, 2006
HKCEE
Comin' Tue.
HKCEE, a word that I've been hearing for times n times, n yet it's definitely more than 5 lettter to me, esp when it's finally my turn to take it, 3 days later. I c'nt agree more by now time reli flies without a trace.
I hvn't tried by very best, at all. With an implicit insight that I gonna regret in not long future, still, I hv been doin' wht I mentioned in a post before, which means that I'm not improving nothing, nothing.
Perhaps, my soul was contaminated somewhere in time, that my determination has beome so weak it's overwhelmed by the barrage of God damn temptations defencelessly? Only heaven knows.
I am clear that one day ppl are goin' to look down on me, n the most important thing is even I myself starts to alter my self-image.
I AM not doing the right thing either, as I am typing this post, while I am supposed to be studying computer for the CE comin' Tue.
One day when I was reading a news article I learnt a theory, which states that when one believes in something, the he will make adjustments in his behaviour, without his own conscious acknowledgement, in order to fits into that "thing". And now I begin to believe I am stupid.....
Cheers,
Kelvin
HKCEE, a word that I've been hearing for times n times, n yet it's definitely more than 5 lettter to me, esp when it's finally my turn to take it, 3 days later. I c'nt agree more by now time reli flies without a trace.
I hvn't tried by very best, at all. With an implicit insight that I gonna regret in not long future, still, I hv been doin' wht I mentioned in a post before, which means that I'm not improving nothing, nothing.
Perhaps, my soul was contaminated somewhere in time, that my determination has beome so weak it's overwhelmed by the barrage of God damn temptations defencelessly? Only heaven knows.
I am clear that one day ppl are goin' to look down on me, n the most important thing is even I myself starts to alter my self-image.
I AM not doing the right thing either, as I am typing this post, while I am supposed to be studying computer for the CE comin' Tue.
One day when I was reading a news article I learnt a theory, which states that when one believes in something, the he will make adjustments in his behaviour, without his own conscious acknowledgement, in order to fits into that "thing". And now I begin to believe I am stupid.....
Cheers,
Kelvin
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Sounds of Hell...
Sounds from Hell?
I have seen the following article circulated quite a bit on the internet. I simply do not know if it is a valid claim. I have not had any success in verifying the source of the story. I want to promote the truth on my website. I do not know if this article is true, but I think it is certainly worthy of letting people know about.
The Truth about hell --A group of Communist Scientist have become believers in the reality of Hell
". . . they dig into hell . . ." Amos 9:2
Click here to Listen To the full Real sounds in Hell recording 2:39:
sounds of hell real audio :: sounds of hell mp3
You listen and make your choice.
The following article appeared in the well respected Finland newspaper, Ammenusastia: "As a communist I don’t believe in heaven or the Bible but as a scientist I now believe in hell," said Dr. Azzacove. "Needless to say we were shocked to make such a discovery. But we know what we saw and we know what we heard. And we are absolutely convinced that we drilled through the gates of hell!"
Dr. Azzacove continued, ". . .the drill suddenly began to rotate wildly, indicating that we had reached a large empty pocket or cavern. Temperature sensors showed a dramatic increase in heat to 2,000 degrees Fahrenheit."
"We lowered a microphone, designed to detect the sounds of plate movements down the shaft. But instead of plate movements we heard a human voice screaming in pain! At first we thought the sound was coming from our own equipment."
"But when we made adjustments our worst suspicions were confirmed. The screams weren’t those of a single human, they were the screams of millions of humans!"
the sounds of hell:
http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/sounds/sounds_from_hell.mp3
Cheers,
Kelvin
I have seen the following article circulated quite a bit on the internet. I simply do not know if it is a valid claim. I have not had any success in verifying the source of the story. I want to promote the truth on my website. I do not know if this article is true, but I think it is certainly worthy of letting people know about.
The Truth about hell --A group of Communist Scientist have become believers in the reality of Hell
". . . they dig into hell . . ." Amos 9:2
Click here to Listen To the full Real sounds in Hell recording 2:39:
sounds of hell real audio :: sounds of hell mp3
You listen and make your choice.
The following article appeared in the well respected Finland newspaper, Ammenusastia: "As a communist I don’t believe in heaven or the Bible but as a scientist I now believe in hell," said Dr. Azzacove. "Needless to say we were shocked to make such a discovery. But we know what we saw and we know what we heard. And we are absolutely convinced that we drilled through the gates of hell!"
Dr. Azzacove continued, ". . .the drill suddenly began to rotate wildly, indicating that we had reached a large empty pocket or cavern. Temperature sensors showed a dramatic increase in heat to 2,000 degrees Fahrenheit."
"We lowered a microphone, designed to detect the sounds of plate movements down the shaft. But instead of plate movements we heard a human voice screaming in pain! At first we thought the sound was coming from our own equipment."
"But when we made adjustments our worst suspicions were confirmed. The screams weren’t those of a single human, they were the screams of millions of humans!"
the sounds of hell:
http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/sounds/sounds_from_hell.mp3
Cheers,
Kelvin
Be yourself
Having done nothing except wasting time in playing silly computer games, I've got nothing to jot down but a story that I read from a Chinese '武俠小說', which is great.
I believe that many people have heard of this story, maybe even more than once I duno. Yet anyway I'm going to shoot.
Once upon a time, there were an old man and his grandson on a journey to nowhere. Realizing there was still a long way to go, they bought a donkey. As they're on their way, a passer-by squinted at them and commented, 'I can't believe that you two are that heartless - You wanna make the little donkey tired to death, huh?' Hearing this, the old man was embarrassed and got off the cattle immdiately. Moments later, 'Oh my...! How can you let your grandpa walk while you're riding the donkey?' grimaced another passer-by to the little boy. No sooner had he said this, than the two travellers exchanged their positions. Again, a passer-by snapped at the old man, 'How can you let a little walk while you're riding a donkey?' It's when the old man got off the donkey and they both walked. Again, a passer-by said, 'Don't tell me that you two are that stupid, that you bought a donkey but don't get on it. Ha!' in this way, the old man and the boy couldn't help but to set free the donkey and continue their journey.....
This story tells us that we have to be ourselves, and don't follow everything others said without thinking.
Apologies for my monotonous writing style today. :P
Cheers,
Kelvin
I believe that many people have heard of this story, maybe even more than once I duno. Yet anyway I'm going to shoot.
Once upon a time, there were an old man and his grandson on a journey to nowhere. Realizing there was still a long way to go, they bought a donkey. As they're on their way, a passer-by squinted at them and commented, 'I can't believe that you two are that heartless - You wanna make the little donkey tired to death, huh?' Hearing this, the old man was embarrassed and got off the cattle immdiately. Moments later, 'Oh my...! How can you let your grandpa walk while you're riding the donkey?' grimaced another passer-by to the little boy. No sooner had he said this, than the two travellers exchanged their positions. Again, a passer-by snapped at the old man, 'How can you let a little walk while you're riding a donkey?' It's when the old man got off the donkey and they both walked. Again, a passer-by said, 'Don't tell me that you two are that stupid, that you bought a donkey but don't get on it. Ha!' in this way, the old man and the boy couldn't help but to set free the donkey and continue their journey.....
This story tells us that we have to be ourselves, and don't follow everything others said without thinking.
Apologies for my monotonous writing style today. :P
Cheers,
Kelvin
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Talent
This time it's reli goin' to be the shortest post ever. :P
Everyone is gifted in at least one aspect, which is strangely accepted by the majority that some are better while some are not as good.
Whatever, I am sure that I'm definitely not talented in understanding women.
When facing women, generally I have one of the following attitude:
1) Dun feel like talking to them. The sole reason is that I dun have much female friend, and so there's not much to talk with those ladies(girls I mean). And I can barely enjoy the conversation for my lack of humour's sake, which is why I always have to shoot my best to avoid 'super ultra-dead air'. That makes me tired...
2) Nervous. When facing some girls, I feel unnatural, for whatever reason. I have no idea why, but that my words juz slip off my tongue and all left is a big hole and my larynx. I can't help. Jesus. I have to worry what to say next and I'm really sick of it. Now I talk less and be on my own more n begins to get used to it and enojoy it. I reckon in not long future I am going to completely lose my ability to communicate with other people, including male. My communicating skills are getting worse.
3) Feel comfortable just like being with male friends. Well, this kind of friend is rare for me. Because of my freak style, and character, I can barely find any male friend that shares the same views with me, not to mention girls.
Minnie is different to me. (It's Minnie, it's different.)
During form 4 when we were in the same tution class, she is in the 3rd kind. But now, when I see her in chem tutorial class, I feel that she begins to become type 2.
I duno why, juz feel nervous that finally I can't help but to go to another room. I really want to talk with her for a whole lot time, yet I behave unnatural, which is what I dun want her to be aware of.
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Actually it sudddenly occurs to me that some readers(although actually there ain't any! rofl~) may groan at that most of the time I am talking about Minnie and wonder if I have other things to say except her.
Well, If u really think as I said, then I'd like to apologize, since everytime I type a post, I don't think any other things take place (I wonder if there's any as a matter of fact) is more worth noting down.
If you have to force me to speak out it, then as u wish, all that's because
I AM BLANK.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Self -control , and the Truth
I'm going to leave merely a short paragraph coz' dun reli feel like typing posts, yet wanna look for a place to express what I am thinking right now, which is why I'm here anyhow.
In primary six, when my mum finally started to let go of me to make my own decisions in a variety of things, the first thing came up my mind was that, "Aha. So mom finally reaalises I have grown up, and ain't a baby anymore." Filled with satisfaction towards my mom's let go a bit, I thought that real fun of life was waiting for me to catch, at the expense of nothing. So naive was I, that I didn't know that everything, but everything has two sides, which means from that time on I had to learn to control my own behaviour.
I didn't know that I'm that fragile towards temptations.
By computer games,..., and all that u can think of. (Maybe a little bit exaggerating :P)
Everyday I was back home from school, I was challenged by a barrage of temptations surrounding me non-stoppedly until when mom came home - I understood I couldn't possibly do anything "wrong" in front of her, which is why it's the only time I felt peace once again since I obtained that "freedom" I had looked for for years. Now that I knew it's not all that Yummy~
And this situation continues, believe it or not, until now!!! Dammit.
For God's sake I'm still in an "ok" standard, but I am clear that I COULD be better. I was not that noob, I know I'm not.
Somehow it makes me think of God again, just now, when I am typing this post.
I remembered that in primary 4,5,6 whenever I prayed at night I felt guilty for not doing what I should or whatever, and promised myself(and Jesus) to be better next day. I guess this is why I could keep my brain fresh all day when I was young.
Now now. As I said, I felt that I became more stupid when comparing with the past.
After lots of thinking, I guess, hopefully, I have not actually become stupid, but that I always waste time on silly things, of which I don't really know what I doing and what for, and then spent less time on THINKING. Without keep-on practising, how am I supposed to be smarter, or simply maintain my intelligence? It's not very likely.
Every night I feel and then have implicit determination to do the 'right things' the next day, but not wasting time.
Yet, take today as an example, I spent the whole morning and afternoon reading chinese 武俠小說. It totally took me more than 6 hours for one day.On the other side, I haven't studied more than half an hour today. Ha, shame on myself.
Okay, so anyway I feel guilty now, which is why I am typing all these, and hope I can do something really meaningful tomorrow, and then I can be more happy if Minnie's really free to have dinner with me. (reli wish she can make it~)
So, to be able to face my hardworking Minnie, I MUST work hard, starting from tomorrow, hopefully it's not too late.
Well, this is how everthing swifts past my head a moment ago.
Last but not least, I wanna speak out my question that is kept in my heart for a couple of days, maybe more.
The question is:
SHOULD WE DO/FOLLOW WHAT WE THINK IS RIGHT, OR INSTEAD, WHAT THE SOCIETY REGARDS AS THE RIGHT THING?
I wish someone can discuss with me. I'm serious.
This question keeps obsessing me.
Cheers,
Kelvin
In primary six, when my mum finally started to let go of me to make my own decisions in a variety of things, the first thing came up my mind was that, "Aha. So mom finally reaalises I have grown up, and ain't a baby anymore." Filled with satisfaction towards my mom's let go a bit, I thought that real fun of life was waiting for me to catch, at the expense of nothing. So naive was I, that I didn't know that everything, but everything has two sides, which means from that time on I had to learn to control my own behaviour.
I didn't know that I'm that fragile towards temptations.
By computer games,..., and all that u can think of. (Maybe a little bit exaggerating :P)
Everyday I was back home from school, I was challenged by a barrage of temptations surrounding me non-stoppedly until when mom came home - I understood I couldn't possibly do anything "wrong" in front of her, which is why it's the only time I felt peace once again since I obtained that "freedom" I had looked for for years. Now that I knew it's not all that Yummy~
And this situation continues, believe it or not, until now!!! Dammit.
For God's sake I'm still in an "ok" standard, but I am clear that I COULD be better. I was not that noob, I know I'm not.
Somehow it makes me think of God again, just now, when I am typing this post.
I remembered that in primary 4,5,6 whenever I prayed at night I felt guilty for not doing what I should or whatever, and promised myself(and Jesus) to be better next day. I guess this is why I could keep my brain fresh all day when I was young.
Now now. As I said, I felt that I became more stupid when comparing with the past.
After lots of thinking, I guess, hopefully, I have not actually become stupid, but that I always waste time on silly things, of which I don't really know what I doing and what for, and then spent less time on THINKING. Without keep-on practising, how am I supposed to be smarter, or simply maintain my intelligence? It's not very likely.
Every night I feel and then have implicit determination to do the 'right things' the next day, but not wasting time.
Yet, take today as an example, I spent the whole morning and afternoon reading chinese 武俠小說. It totally took me more than 6 hours for one day.On the other side, I haven't studied more than half an hour today. Ha, shame on myself.
Okay, so anyway I feel guilty now, which is why I am typing all these, and hope I can do something really meaningful tomorrow, and then I can be more happy if Minnie's really free to have dinner with me. (reli wish she can make it~)
So, to be able to face my hardworking Minnie, I MUST work hard, starting from tomorrow, hopefully it's not too late.
Well, this is how everthing swifts past my head a moment ago.
Last but not least, I wanna speak out my question that is kept in my heart for a couple of days, maybe more.
The question is:
SHOULD WE DO/FOLLOW WHAT WE THINK IS RIGHT, OR INSTEAD, WHAT THE SOCIETY REGARDS AS THE RIGHT THING?
I wish someone can discuss with me. I'm serious.
This question keeps obsessing me.
Cheers,
Kelvin
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
What makes me so stupid
I am just back home, clothes changed, and then wasted no time rushing towards my notebook and started this post. I'd like to tell u an interesting (reli?) yet stupid real story that took place just half an hour before.
The story began when the tution was over. My classmates and I left the building from the back stairs. When we'd got to the ground floor and I turned around occassionally, Minnie caught my eyes - She's behind me: as far as I remember she virtually leaves by taking the lift everytime, which is why I was surprised seeing her using the stairs. A split of a second and then she saw me too. Being who I am as usual, words just slipped away from my tongue. What only emerged and all in my brain, was a word that can't be ever simpler - "Bye~", and the silly waving gesture. Dammit, I rarely behave like this.
Then I turned around and left with my mates, yet I felt uncomfortable all the way, not knowing exactly why. Part of it, of which I was sure, was that I felt ashamed on myself for behaving as a shit, while the other part was unknown, unknown until when I got on the MTR. No sooner had I got on the cargo, than I realised what - I wanna ask her for dinner together. That's wht obsessed me all along since I waved Minnie bye. It was then I dragged my cell phone out from my pocket and discovered that it was out of battery. Haha......What the god damn fate! I knew what I want to do when everything appeared to be too late and then, when I tried to phone her in case it was not too late it, it.......!!! Very well. I couldn't blame the phone though. I was the one who didn't know to grab the chance to ask you when we were fact to face, but had to wait till we're elsewhere apart that I couldn't help but to try to phone you.
I didn't, and don't know how to describe the foolishness in me.
I didn't have dinner. The mere thing and all I had in my mind was to back home as soon as I could and type out this post, without knowing why. (I reli don't know? well, I guess I want to at least tell you, minnie, that I had this intention, notwithstanding the unchangeable fact that time don't wait...)
Of course, maybe you was having somewhere to go anyway and even I asked you, it's still in vain and nothing's different. But I felt like a noob. Lol~ By the way, did you actually have somewhere to go, minnie? What about next week? :P reli wanna eat with you once more, really.
So, this is how everything(All things matter to me today is already written here) goes today.
Well I gotta go eat something finaly, after typing this post, as I am really hungry right now. :P
Cheers,
Kelvin
P.S. I can't believe myself that I can write such a large paragrah on something taking that is like less than three seconds. Hehe~
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