How am I supposed to stand it?

Ha, how sarcastic, that this day I can't think of anything to say and another day I've got countless ideas.
Right now although I don't really feel like typing anything for I'm bout to go to bed, I can't help but finish this small paragraph.

The whole story is simple.

My mom always commands dad to do ANYTHING, anything, partly because he doesn't really self-motivated to do housework (as this is what mom said), and partly because......

But well okay, so dad doesn't do it. That doesn't mean YOU should command him as if he's a servant, especially IN FRONT OF ME, MAN! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TALK TO DAD IN THIS WAY, HUH? Not even grandpa. I understand that you're angry with dad for only surfing the net and watching tv after work. Yet you two can set plans! I can't believe my eyes that my parents can't work out this kind of slightest matter! Simply promising each other one will do specific things at what time can have the problem solved! And you can find me also! Jesus!

Let the cat out of the bag, mom. It's not what dad does make you treat him that badly, which I think is actually INSULTS! It's that you get annoyed from work, from the relationship with grandma of mom's side, and then when back home you spit those, those bad feelings (seems that I have beautified it) on dad while being clear that dad is so soft that he won't fight back. To this point I am really surprised at dad's EQ. I never see him get really angry, which is why mom is able to take the whip hand on him.

Dammit! I feel like a fish out of water, that I don't understand my family at all, not even a single bit!

More than that, not knowing since when I began to lost faith on what is called MARRIAGE. In my eyes it's a terrifying vocabulary. It's untouchable.

After all I know she loves me, which is implicit. It's juat I can't stand her way of treating dad sometimes (sometimes they get along well when nothing's happening).

Frankly, all these are part of the reasons why I want to study abroad. I don't belong here.

I rarely disagree with lyrics, but this time, i.e. "When love takes you home, and says you belong here. Your loneliness passed, and a new life began..."

It's bullshit to me.

I enjoy much more when I'm alone, enjoying going to the mountains, surfing the net chatting with friends(Janet, Minnie, Scott, Nathan, Aeroplane...), practising English, anything I do on my own or with my true friends.

Hope I don't make you readers feel bad. =) I don't mean to. (Anyway there's not many people crossing by)

Cheers,

Kelvin